fresh start. stereotyped mind.

Recently there have been a lot of unpleasant surprises in my life. I was busy dealing with them and haven’t really spent quality time on basically anything I enjoy. So. The crucial mess is over now and life is getting back on track and I really have no excuse to delay blogging. Hello people, I am back :D

This is going to be a lack-of-focus post since I actually haven’t got the time to organise the bits and pieces floating in my mind. And after all it’s been half a month since my last entry and you know that feeling when you left somewhere and have to find your way back? This is what I feel now. Haven’t paid attention to things around me and now when I want to type I don’t know what to.  I guess I need some time to get back to that fashion fever mood. So maybe I should just tell a bit about the major change in my life for now?

The last roses you sent. Lifeless as you were with me.

I am back to the prestigious and fabulous single community. The guy that I spent the past 3 years with finally realised he does not love me anymore and left me. Don’t worry it was peaceful and mature breakup and I am fine, although I did spent some time grieving over the lost love. I remember when the same guy left me for the first time I was devastated, woke up from tears every morning and wonder why my love for him wasn’t dead with the romance he gave me. Romance is long gone. Now so is love.  This is the official end between us. We both deserve someone better and more love.  All the best to you J.

(this is so weird. I am not sad but I have this feeling that some parts of me left with him. I guess I need time to get used to the fact that I don’t have someone to rely on anymore. )

Life goes on.

I spent most of the past week with my master application (which took me ages) and looking up wikipedia (now I sound like a nerdy freak). And I realised I am interested in a lot more things than I thought I did. I want to see more of the world. I want to see more of the beauty of the earth. I somehow want to leave city for a while and explore the wild (I told my darling Ivan about this and guess what he said. “you want to see animals? Go to the zoo.”) and places that I haven’t been to. And I want to do something beneficial to someone if not everyone. I want to volunteer in a third world country (ok now this is turning into a Paris Hilton show….) so I went to Unicef’s career page and this is what I saw.

General Requirements


Following are the basic requirements for a professional position with UNICEF:
• Education: Master’s Degree in a field relevant to the work of UNICEF or equivalent professional experience.
• Experience: Relevant professional work experience, some of which has been obtained in a developing country, at least five years for mid-career and two to three years for an entry-level position.
• Language: Proficiency in English and in another UN working language (Arabic, Chinese, French, Russian and Spanish). Knowledge of the local language of a duty station where the position is based is an asset.

Totally put me back on the ground. Is a master degree really necessary for helping children in the third world!?!?! Oh well at least now I have a motivation to get my master offer. Darn should have found this out earlier so I could have a little bit more to blah on my personal statement…..